Don't ever get into a drunken bitchy mood when your boyfriend is "feeling weird". He will go to Chicago and not really explain why. There is trouble in the magical land of boyfriends. I just don't think that he is happy with our relationship. Otherwise, he is really unhappy with other things that he isn't telling me. He really isn't telling me a whole lot about why he isn't all hugs and kisses like normal. I hope that it has nothing to do with the whole "I love you" exchange.
Now consider this...I have never been in a serious dating relationship where I am always staying over and actually planning a future together. He has been in several long-term relationships. I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing here. I guess I'm just kinda waiting for him to tell me that I've been elimidated and then I cry a lot. I really hope that doesn't happen but that is all that I know of relationships.
I am exhausted. I cannot fathom even continuing this fight. I just want to o crawl into bed with him and cuddle and make it all better. Did I mention that I don't really even know if we are fighting or if he is upset at all?
Oh yeah, I said "I love you" when we went camping. The moment was right and it was exactly how I felt. I know that we have only been together for a month. He did say that he loved me back.
Enough about that. You are probably all screaming to just shut up. Well how about the fact that I had to unclog two toilets tonight at work. And the fact that my soon to be former roommate left potatoes on top of the refridgerator until they rotted and the rotten juices dripped down the side of the fridge. Take that for telling me to shut up. It was really super gross.
Did I mention that I got gorgeous new sheets and a comforter for my bed? I love it. It is red and orange and so pretty and fluffy. Because it is so comfortable and because I haven't stayed at my house for awhile, I still haven't finished the remaining thirty pages of American Gods (which is a phenominal book and everyone should read it if they consider themselves to be the least bit intelligent).
My sunburns still itch a lot and are still red from canoeing. I just burnt the tops of my legs and my feet. Not my "pale as the winter moon reflecting off the snow" back (that Paramedic took pictures of to make fun of me til the end of time with). I'm sure that I will post those pictures when he develops them.
I guess that I have rambled enough for most of you. If you want more, just let me know. Maybe I'll give it to you and maybe I won't.