This frustrates me. I realize that I am worrying just about as much as my mother if not more. She called me yesterday to tell me that my father has pneumonia. This scared me. I knew that he had been sick for a while but had really thought nothing of it. I worry about this and I worry about him.
My father has always been the sort of person to never get sick. I almost think of him as a superman that can do anything and really have no problem with accomplishing the task.
My mother wants to come over this weekend. She wanted to come over last weekend. For no reason. This bothers me. I want there to be a reason to come and not just for a visit. It is hard for me to want to entertain my parents. Somehow this became my task when I came to college. Now they come over and I must plan time for them around my already busy schedule. I know that this is not what they want me to do, but it is definitely what they expect. I have to spend an ungodly amount of time with them and I have to come up with something fun for them to do which does not involve them taking me out to dinner or buying me the stuff that I don't have money for at Wal-Mart (I don't go there until my parents come to pay for it). She might not come over because she hates to drive and that is what my father is for mostly. She might still come over with my aunt or grandmother (which I would love). She might also not come at all.
So I guess what I'm saying is that I worry like my mother does. Too much and about things that I cannot affect. My father will be ok. But she still drops things on me like a giant fucking bomb. I wish she wouldn't do things like that. She dropped the huge bomb on me that my grandmother was dying like it was just another conversation about the weather. Note to readers: she is dying but we don't really get along with her or have much contact with her so it is not very significant to most people in my family. It has affected me more than I would have ever assumed. I am sure that I will post about this soon.
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