Why is it that when I want sex so bad I can taste it (ewww) I can't have it? Well I could have it but not with someone that I would want to have it with.
Let me explain. Lets all go back a few weeks to when I got called into the diner instead of going home with a boy. That boy has since been calling me a lot. Like kinda stalkerish a lot. I need to let him down easy. It just shouldn't happen between us. It should not. He is not what I'm looking for and he cannot handle me. He is a super nice guy. Like Superhero nice guy. Picture him with a fluffy bunny and huge biceps. Oh and he's a bald Asian nurse. It just would not work out. He wants a relationship (and has for months) and I just want a fun night. I did that once. It wasn't awkward but it wasn't great. I'm so not into one night stands.
Went out for drinks last night. Her Highness and His Highness got me pretty drunk. It felt great to go out and relax. The night before that Bunny helped me relax with a few drinks. I had a rough weekend without any drinks so I'm trying to make up for it.
I think I almost fell apart this weekend. I finally worked myself too hard. Everything hurt and was just bad. I couldn't handle anything and things just kept building. I survived and looking back, it wasn't really anything bad. I just got exhausted. I did get hit on a lot this weekend though.
That brings up The Man of My Dreams. MoMD came into the diner drunk Saturday night. He sat at the counter and talked to me for quite some time and then I had stuff to do so. He kept talking about this guy from the coffee shop that knew me. He wanted to know what his story was because he thinks that this boy is cute. He wouldn't let it go. It just made me very annoyed. But then when he was leaving, he looked around for me. I know that he looked around for me because he passed me twice when he was searching the entire store. I am not daring enough to do anything about it, but this crush is huge. Then he came into the coffee shop and was being mildly flirtatious again (but I think he was looking for the guy who came in later). Talk about upsetting. Grrrr.
I need to shave and clean and do a million and a half things. I'm gonna go home now. I might go out later. Tempt fate? I don't know. I almost don't want to go out because I'm afraid of who will be out and what I will have to do. I've been ignoring a lot of phone calls recently. Lets see.