My lungs are sore today. I don't know how many cigarettes I smoked last night but I'm guessing more than normal. I also stayed out later than normal. After the Dukum, the bartenders invited a bunch of people over for an after party. I'm always up for an afterparty especially one with free alcohol. So I got a ride over to the party and just hung out smoking and shooting the shit with my favorite bartenders (now former bartenders). I think this is where I smoked too much. It was chilly outside and I just kept smoking. One after another with little more than 10 minutes in between. About 5 am, one of the guys offered to give me a ride home. So home I went listening to his loud techno music.
At about 2 pm, I woke up to lightning and car alarms. I think that one was causing the other. A loud crash of lightning and then a car alarm for exactly three cycles. This happened exactly three times that I noticed while being awake. It was kinda scary because I really didn't know how serious the storm was. I could tell that it was very close and that there was a lot of lightning. I thought that the storm was happening at 8 am or something like that so I went back to bed. Thats right, I slept until 5 pm today. Good thing I didn't have anything to do.
I also found out that the Killers moved their concert until July and now I probably won't be able to go because of my job. I was pissed. I've been looking forward to this concert for months. So now I guess I just get to look forward to a roadtrip to Monroe, WI to see a former teacher. We have lost contact over the last four years and finally we decided that we just have to fix that. So my best friend from high school and I are going to go up and have fun with the woman who helped shape us from little snots to adults. She changed my life so much and really made me love performing. I blame her for everything. My love for good poetry. My need for the stage. My ability to perform (you be the judge). So we will be going to see her for the first time in over three years. Yay for roadtrips.
I finally got over my feelings of impending sadness. Don't know when it happened, but I definitely noticed a difference this evening. I felt purpose back in my life. I think it was just the post graduation what am I doing with my life type thing. Even though I know what I'm doing its still just that feeling. But now it is gone. Back to being happy.