An update for those of you who thought I couldn't get over it.
I'm over it. It really didn't take all that long. I went through the stages of grief and now I'm over it. I was actually over it about Tuesday afternoon. It was actually really easy to get over. Once I realized that I was a lot better off without him and that he just made segment of my life seem better, then it was really easy to see that he was a real douchbag and that I will be able to find someone better. And I'm not just saying that to make myself feel better. He really did make me feel like shit for awhile. He embarassed me in front of his friends and mine. He only did what he wanted to do and not what I wanted to do. Basically, he used me.
The only thing that I still have to do before it is all over is get my stuff back. This is probably going to be bad but I still have to do it. I like my stuff otherwise it would not be mine. So this could be a fun adventure.
In other news, other boys have helped me get over Paramedic. Thank you to the boys who flirted with me Tuesday night to make me feel pretty. Thank you to the one who got away for making me feel like a wonderful person. I might have already found someone to move on with but I'm going to take it really slow. Probably painfully slow. I don't need to have a relationship right now. Plus, I don't know how I made one work in the first place with how busy I am. I think that a relationship is (and was) unhealthy for me.
Wednesday, I did some therapy shopping. I probably coulld have waited a day or two after "putting money away for my future" before blowing a huge amount at the mall. I opened a savings account to help save up enough to start a CD and really start investing in my future. Banker is very proud of me. He will probably be less so when he realizes what I spent. Damn you GAP. But I did get some cute underwear and some nice pants to go with my pants for the wedding.
I need to start watching the DVDs from Grey's Anatomy (that I got for free). I had to finish the third season of Arrested Development before starting a new series. Plus, I knew that I didn't really need anything else sad earlier this week. I needed something hysterical. But now, it is time to start the amazingness that is the second season at Seattle Grace.
It looks like probably the first of the year before my improv troup starts performing, but I will keep you updated. And now, I think I'm going to sign up for myspace. That will show Paramedic. Plus, I want to be competitive with collecting friends. I'm so far behind that I will have to work very hard.